I recently discovered an amazing blog of a fellow church planter’s wife who seemed to echo my thoughts and emotions completely. Her name is Christine Hoover and you can find her blog at www.gracecoversme.com. It completely spoke to my heart and maybe it will speak to yours as well! (Us CPW’s need to stick together! We need all the help we can get! LOL.)
I left her a comment after one of her blogs and then realized… I need to copy this onto my own. I think it may give you another glimpse in who I am… and who I am becoming through this process.
“…We seem to be running after God’s leading at this point, as He seems to always be ahead of us, paving the way. I recently started blogging about my experience in order to get all my “crazy” thoughts out of my head and onto paper (in a sense.) I did not realize how physically exhausting this (church planting) would be… or how emotional I would become! We have had many trials already, and are still being hit by the enemy, but we are clinging to Him… and as of right now, I’m beginning to feel like I have fallen on my face and can’t catch my breath. I’ve begun reading through your posts, and it’s like reading my exact thoughts and emotions. I don’t believe I’ve ever grown as much in my relationship with Christ than I have in the past two years through this experience. I keep clinging to the verses in Psalm 18:16-24:
16-19 But me he caught—reached all the way
from sky to sea; he pulled me out
Of that ocean of hate, that enemy chaos,
the void in which I was drowning.
They hit me when I was down,
but God stuck by me.
He stood me up on a wide-open field;
I stood there saved—surprised to be loved!
20-24 God made my life complete
when I placed all the pieces before him.
When I got my act together,
he gave me a fresh start.
Now I’m alert to God’s ways;
I don’t take God for granted.
Every day I review the ways he works;
I try not to miss a trick.
I feel put back together,
and I’m watching my step.
God rewrote the text of my life
when I opened the book of my heart to his eyes.
I am not completely healed yet… and I know that more wounds will come as the Church advances… but I have hope. 🙂